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Storage unit, some lovin

Last night and the other night

After going through a large exhibition area where there was to be a convention (all the merchants were setting up) I decided to go tour a storage facility with my brother as we were thinking about renting a storage unit (true story btw). According to the computer this particular facility only has 4 other renters so we had the pick of the crop. We go through thr dimly lit hallways and peer into each “unit” though each one seemed more like a big room than a storage unit. In fact the storage facility seemed like an old office or school building. We played in one of them, doing cartwheels and somersaults while some kids came into the room to run around too. Carrying on, we found one where we were thinking through the logistics of mattresses and tires fitting in the area. Then I decided to go through another unit close by. Turns out it belonged to another person (why storage units have your run of the mill door with a knob I dunno) and they had the whole setup! Bed, lamp, dresser. Even a window. I turned to my brother, knowing that it was fully illegal to do this, but shrugged and said, “Well it’s certainly cheaper than renting an apartment.”

Last night’s dreams were less logical. In fact there were 2 instances of me trying to score. One with a guy I used to go to college with and the other was a woman I’d never met before…skinny, possibly asian, shoulder cut hair parted to the side. Since no one reads this, I think I’ll go into a little more detail. The setting was my place, which was like an apartment, white, bright and inviting, the sun pouring in through the large windows adorned with sheer white curtains. She sat down in a chair and leaned back, a smile on her face and relaxing. I walk up to her from in front, smiling myself in anticipation. Before I could touch her, though, she kicked off her heels and breathed a loud sigh of satisfaction. She had on a red tube dress with spaghetti straps, and I brush the straps aside, off her shoulders (and at this point apparently slid them off altogether). My view was of her armpits and up and it is only understood that she was naked, not actually shown. I begin by rubbing her shoulders, her thin, tone muscles, small under my hands. Then I start to work my way down and oops, on to the next person! Different day, same place. On the bed this time, is my old schoolmate. He is unclothed and on the bed, all white sheets and pillows and walls. I hop on and start playing with his body as he smiles knowingly at me. His tan skin and firm muscular body attractive in all ways. We’re about to get to the fun part, when my mom decides to walk by. I try to cover him up with the sheets, but he starts joking with me and we play-tussle while giggling. My mom looks at me with an annoyed look on her face, as if saying, really? Now? Then rolls her eyes and keeps walking. We giggle with each other some more and…

Next dream. BUMMER!!!!

This part is more confusing and sporadic, but I am at one point walking Gable along some streets and near crowds of people. I’m doing it on purpose as people take one look at him and utter words of amazement. We walk along a road, down a street, near the water, up another street. Just strutting our stuff and he’s being such a good boy. Then I’m in a mall-type open air place where I’m supposed to be working. My coworker is there and she asks me to take a PA of her teeth. I do and we compare them to the last one taken. She is missing her molars, just root tips remaining, while the premolars present with broken roots! No wonder he’s having pain. I tell her we have to let a doctor see it, and we wait until my boss looks at her teeth, but his face is all wrong…too long and with white fuzz growing from his face. Then all of the sudden I’m working for this really hard-ass guy who is making a big deal about some small instance and then…I wake up

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Ex, old friend, hygiene, curry

Sometimes I wake up with my eyes crusty and gooey. I guess I’d been crying in my sleep. That was me this morning.

The other night I dreamed of him. I was in a facility, building of some sort, an apartment building or something in a city. There were lots of friends, people and family. I look out the window and there is a fire at the building next to us with lots of fire trucks underneath, trying to fight it. The other building on the other side is burning too. I’m scared that we’re going to catch fire, and of course, fires make me think of one person. Suddenly I turn and see him, with great surprise I greet him, but he looks so different I don’t even recognize him. He’s skinny, oh so skinny and tired/haggard looking. Even his face is wrong, but I know it’s him. I hug him hard, even though I was afraid of hurting him, and am extremely worried at this point. He tells me that they won’t let him work any more than Sundays as a fireman and when asked why he says it’s because he’s a woman now. That he’s been turned into a woman and he’s at the end of his rope. A surge of resolve flows through me and I tell him that I’m going to help him make it right. We’re going to turn him back into a man so he can live his life again. Now it’s like a video game. He is so happy that I am going to help him, so we open up the map and we fly around until we get to the world I need to get to. The objective is a watery place where we need to find information and I get to a large mushroom that I need to climb because that’s where it is, the answer, when…I wake up. I tried so hard to go back to sleep and finish it, because he was waiting for me dammit! I NEED TO HELP HIM. …But…my brain refused to go back to that dream and I tossed and turned until I got tired of trying to dream.

It was very depressing and disturbing too. Just like in real life, I couldn’t help him even though I promised to, no matter how desperately I wanted it.

Last night was interesting and convoluted. I slept well even though I woke up with tears in my eyes.

There was a part where I was supposed to have been cleaning teeth for some young people but their 5 sisters were making it really hard for me. Still managed to, but overly frustrating and took a long time. Then I was back in my old house, except that I knew it wasn’t our house anymore because it was dark, cold and sterile because my dad has turned it that way.  At the table I was entertaining some friends and people I sort of know. My old friend was asking me about curry and where to get some, and I said, well, here in nova it’s easy to find. He said that he doesn’t like the preservatives in them, so I said there are plenty of alternative stores here too. Before he left I went to spice closet (in the laundry room…) to find our curry to show, but I couldn’t find anything. Then the bell rang and it was a package, but I didn’t want to answer the door because it’s my dad’s house and I didn’t want to know what it was in the box. He was busy hiding until he saw it was the mail carrier and went out to get it. Turns out it was something for my mom? Who was also there. Then suddenly I was outside and my old friend was sitting on the grass. I asked him if he could do cartwheels and he said he didn’t want to scare the rodents in the moss. So we both sat down and I felt like I wanted to sit next to him and have him hold me, but then that reminded me of my ex (I guess that’s where I cried) and I realized that I wasn’t ready to start another relationship yet, even though I wanted to. The heart and brain fighting again. So we both sat there as I poked at the moss on the ground and observed as police pulled over a car.

 

 

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Cheating?

I woke up this morning feeling badly…in the dream and in real life for having dreamed it.

Of course there are other dreams, but this one stuck out to me.

Mixed in with people I know going to med school, and counting wrongly in my dream the number of rooms my paternal grandmother has in her because my sister wanted to know as she needed to move back to the neighborhood for a job? I counted 8 rooms, but now realize it’s wrong because I added an extra story and a basement, neither of which exist for real. It’s just 4 bedrooms. Anyways, it all was about one of my suitors when I was online dating. He did (and still does I think) think very seriously about me and it carried over in this dream. This very vivid dream. Anyways I went to visit him in his apartment/dorm which he shared with 2 other guys. Very cozy place, a little cluttered, but it’s a small area. They were all in school or maybe were just younger guys working. This must have been day two, as it felt like I’d done it before. I’ve been there before…like I’d dreamed it before. My sister was present for a little while as if he was close to being in a relationship with me. Anyways, we drove places and went places like a large Olympic pool in a gym, a concert outside, drove on the streets of a busy urban area. We arrived back at their place and everyone was chilling. He and his roommates were being kind of loud, and he yelled at his friend to “BE QUIET, just BE QUIET!” My sister gave me a look like, whoa…and disappeared, like she left. I couldn’t take the noise anymore so I went into the next room for some calm so that I could play my Bubble Witch Saga 2. It’s a smaller, darker room, like someone’s bedroom. Instead of a bed there’s a large sleeper sectional with hunter green bedding, made, but somewhat messy all facing a TV. It must have been his room. Obviously they use it as a communal place to either play video games or watch TV. He follows me, as do both of the other roommates. He sits to my right and the roommates on either side of us and the TV turns on.

Everyone’s calmed down at this point. I rest my head on his shoulder and give it a few kisses (like I do M, but this one specifically feels NOT like M). At this point it’s obvious that we both feel something for each other, tensions start building in my body. His roommates take no notice like it’s natural,  but I am very conflicted as I was there only to hang out with him because we’re friends and I have a boyfriend. He hugs me and whispers that he can make his friends leave the room, in fact he’s going to ask them to leave. He starts telling them so, but I stop him and they didn’t bother to move anyways, because I need to leave. He gets a very sad and pained look on his face, and he sits down, defeated, watching the TV. He doesn’t talk or look at me. I feel sad myself as we have just hit a pivotal point in our relationship and I have effectively gave him a direct answer, but I feel that this is the right thing to do. It’s not fair to M. I can’t do it. I can’t cheat on him. I know we’re just dating, but I love him too much. So I say goodbye to the roommates, starting with the talkative one on my left. I go to hug him (I guess we’ve all known each other for a long time) and he gets on top of me and starts bouncing. I laugh, when the door opens and a suitemate/neighbor girl stares at us with a weird look because we were being too loud, but seeing him bounce on top of me like that she’s weirded out and slams the door. I laugh again because that would be a strange sight to anyone looking in on us, but apparently it’s normal? I go next to the cool roommate and hug him goodbye. Uneventful.

I make my way to the desk next to the TV and open one of the boxes of gummies. I concentrate and lean my head into the portal, but I get to my shoulders and get stuck, so I come back out. My friend begrudgingly comes over to help, giving me an older, half eaten box of gummies with the words “Use this box” written on it in black Sharpie. He gives me a sad smile and I tell him goodbye. Sure enough the box did the trick and I was in my mom’s house.

Didn’t have time to think about the relationship situation because I was in the midst of a family party and had to make my own food, but the gas burners wouldn’t burn evenly because there was so much black charred food/sludge blocking them, so I scraped it off.

Analysis: The friend in this dream is a real guy, and he does still wish I had chosen him over M. I talk to him sometimes, and I like having conversations with him, but I can tell that he’s still sad over it. MagFest was just this past weekend. Was he thinking about me?This dream must have been my brain’s definite answer to that possibility. It would be weird if it was a shared dream. Haven’t heard from him since Friday. Either way I woke up feeling really badly. REally really badly that I had even been tempted to cheat on my bf.

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Fishing with dental floss; Honeymoon??

I’m covering 2 different nights worth of vivid and memorable dreams here.

Fishing

I’m in a small paddle boat with who I assume to be my dad, but I only see their large, meaty back and never their face. I mention something to them about how I’ve been trying to get away from my dad because he’s not a good person. The person responds sadly, “Do you really think so?” I suddenly feel awkward so I manage to make it off the boat and back on shore, someone shows me how to fish with dental floss by tying one end onto my finger, tying a loop in the other and dragging it into the water. Surprisingly, it’s successful and I get 2 or 3 small fish. To throw back, of course. Then the other invisible person says we should go cave fishing. So I follow them and I have to fish underwater now. Jump in and find that my floss isn’t working because it’s too short. The barred knifejaw are very large underwater and I think I try to catch them with my bare hands, but it’s futile. So I get out and end up playing street hockey farther in the cave with my mom’s cousins kids.

Honeymoon??

It starts off with me looking for some hotels or motels to rent. There’s a smaller one which I said in my dream was  Best Western with only 4 levels or choose from one of the surrounding larger multistory ones. I’m looking specifically at Holiday Inn, but the building doesn’t look quite like it. Anyways, while I’m outside studying both, I look over to see some firefighters and other rescue people trying to fight a fire from a helicopter and truck ladder on the “holiday Inn” building. I’m so excited because I get to see firefighters in person! All of the sudden I can’t get closer because a crowd has gathered to watch including some policemen. I pull out my phone to take a picture and send to M, waiting for the fireman with the hose to stand up for the perfect picture. I text him and then all of the sudden we’re in a rented beach house on the ocean front of North Myrtle Beach.

It’s a newer place kind of like a townhouse, but detached. We had just unpacked everything, specifically the food and I was busy recounting excitedly to M all our different traditions there at the beach. Then I took stock of all the food because the next step was usually to go grocery shopping. As I looked through all that we’d unpacked, I started getting tears in my eyes because my mom had helped pack all the food and even remembered the cha lua like we always have brought to the beach with us. She had packed so much that there was no need to go grocery shopping at all! We head outside for our next plan when suddenly I see one of my old hygiene classmates Christine. She’s so happy to see us and turns out she was right next door! But by herself! She seemed lonely and her bf is not with her. So she excitedly and enthusiastically takes us on a tour.

First we head out to the beach where since I’d been there last, they’d installed a small strip of pavers into a boardwalk for runners and bikers. I was very pumped about this because I wanted to rent bikes and see if we’d be able to bike all the way to myrtle beach. Then she led us back and showed us the ample arcade the community had. I was impressed there too, but it was getting late and since we’d just arrived we needed to get back to the house. She followed us and I leapt into M’s arms, who carried be effortlessly across the threshold. She still followed us, but looked forlorn like she missed her own bf. She putters around the house while we stand there, me trying to figure out how to hint that she should go. She even offers to help me make ramen for dinner and I laugh because ramen is my specialty, thank you. She takes the hint and goes to return to her house, sadly. I turn to M when she leaves and say to him, “At least she can take a hint.” I laugh and bury my face in his chest.

THE END

Analyses?

My dad in YET ANOTHER DREAM. Always trying to be as peaceful and sad as ever. I have no explanation for fishing and dental floss because I’ve never been fishing before and my dad does not like fishing.

I hadn’t realized initially how much like a honeymoon the second dream sounded until I texted M about it. The more I look at the words, the more it sounds like one. So then why did it have to stop at the good part  *pout*

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